You choose.

Bila kita dah habis sekolah ni, automatic kita akan rasa kita dah jadi young adult. Fasa yang you rasa you've are in a new phase where not only you 'free' to do as you please without anyone giving you a second look or a second opinion, but in fact 'encouraged' to do all it takes to fit in with the crowd. 


So, do you want to follow the flow or stand with what you're here for? It is a hard decision. Especially when you have the uber kuasa veto in your hand. But then again, the question's key is, why are you here and what are you here for? In this world i mean. 


The Prophet S.A.W is reported to have said: 'Fear Allah wherever you are, follow a bad deed with a good one and behave yourself in good manner.'


The hadith covers the skema jawapan for the question quite nicely, right? 


Fear Allah. And Him only. Not your cikgu disiplin, not your warden asrama, not your parents, not the Tok Mudims. Fear Him only, and fear Him wherever you are. And hence, when you're away from your cikgu or warden asrama or parents, its not actually a licensed reason to do things funny, though the new-found independence is intoxicating.

Because you know Allah sees you wherever you are, rightt? The very definition of 'Ihsan'. You could recall balik soalan PAFA darjah enam, Pendidikan Islam PMR and SPM untuk standard skema jawapan anyway.







P/S: Takuti Allah di mana jua berada/ Tebus setiap perbuatan yang tak baik itu dengan perbuatan yang baik. Sebaik-baiknya buat perangai elok sentiasa.
Thankyou fr reading. Kbye.

Mood swings.

So. I don’t know where to begin really. I guess lately i just feel so horrible. Nothing feels right and im caught in that odd grey area where u're feeling one thing, but also not feeling it? Does that even make sense?



I know i have so much to be thankful for. And i am so thankful for everything i hv in life. My family and friends, a warm shelter, clothes, foods. But a part of me is just missing.




I feel like i am a complete failure at life. Heck, sometimes i dont even do my homework or prepare myself for upcoming class/test/quizzes or life like i should be doing. Im such a failure. I dont know what happened to me, i used to be so motivated. Used to be. Yes.



I dont even know. I still feels like.. taktau nak habaq macam mana. there issss just something wrong.



im just so angry with myself. and world. mybe.

 Im such a loser. Im not even smart, and i dont even try as much as i should. I fucking think that i dont hv to study fr anything, and then i end up doing badly on a test or quiz, and whatnot! I have no motivation. Who even cares? Why does any of this even  matter? It doesnt. I dont know what i want to do in life, nor do i want anyone bugging me or talking to me. I stuck in the middle between trying to be that nice, loving, caring, innocent girl everyone loves and the dark, cold-hearted person






I jst hate hving a mood swings.
Thankyou fr reading. Kbye.