Mood swings.

So. I don’t know where to begin really. I guess lately i just feel so horrible. Nothing feels right and im caught in that odd grey area where u're feeling one thing, but also not feeling it? Does that even make sense?



I know i have so much to be thankful for. And i am so thankful for everything i hv in life. My family and friends, a warm shelter, clothes, foods. But a part of me is just missing.




I feel like i am a complete failure at life. Heck, sometimes i dont even do my homework or prepare myself for upcoming class/test/quizzes or life like i should be doing. Im such a failure. I dont know what happened to me, i used to be so motivated. Used to be. Yes.



I dont even know. I still feels like.. taktau nak habaq macam mana. there issss just something wrong.



im just so angry with myself. and world. mybe.

 Im such a loser. Im not even smart, and i dont even try as much as i should. I fucking think that i dont hv to study fr anything, and then i end up doing badly on a test or quiz, and whatnot! I have no motivation. Who even cares? Why does any of this even  matter? It doesnt. I dont know what i want to do in life, nor do i want anyone bugging me or talking to me. I stuck in the middle between trying to be that nice, loving, caring, innocent girl everyone loves and the dark, cold-hearted person






I jst hate hving a mood swings.